Always Aditya

These days I am getting addicted to all those things which I never paid attention to and thought they were just a waste of time. Not that I changed my feeling towards them in a positive direction but I am, almost most of the day thinking of doing these things. One of them is logging onto Orkut website and seeing all those faces that have been viewed earlier in the day already. Even though neither the numbers of friends increase (at least in my case and as if I care) nor any of my friends scrap me frequently, I keep on viewing my account in anticipation that I may have received any scrap. I don’t. But still the logging in on orkut continues.

Another thing, which I am more or else addicted to is my chair in my room. It is a relaxing chair. I feel great relaxation when I just sit in it. I tend to meditate more when I sit in it. Its no surprise that half the time I am on that chair, I will be sleeping. Now you know what meditation actually means to me. That is my own way of relaxing. Every time I come to my room I some how get that laziness required to postpone all my work and relax in that chair. You can’t help when you are born with laziness running in your blood. I often think how would be my life when I won’t be having time even to relax.

Computer is one thing, which is indispensable these days. And I second that. I spend most of my day on Computer and Internet. Almost half my life up till now has been dedicated to this electronic wonder. You might wonder what I do on my computer. Nothing much. I play. Apart from my office work offcourse. I got fascinated to it when I was about 10 and the fascination just grew. I do almost all my work on my computer. Not because I have to but I love to. I feel sophisticated and high profile when I access my work through the network of computers at my home and office.

Reading is also one of my big addictions. The subject may change from time to time. I read books on fiction, psychology, personality development, literature etc. The mere addiction to reading may have propelled me to read so many books. Even though I like reading, I always found my Graduation and Post Graduation books very hard to digest. Its not that I find them boring but they do not complement my style of reading. I can’t read same book twice most of the time. Every one knows that from our kindergarten, we are made to read our schoolbooks at least twice. Like it or not you have to read them even though you find them boring when compared to comics.

Working is something I love to do. And by work I am not intending to portray an image of an employee working under an employer. I like to work in my office in my own way. It gives me a great sense of satisfaction when I am in a position to take the affairs of the office in my hands. Working for not the heck of it but to face challenges and overcoming them has been my definition of work. Not that I was a workaholic from the starting. I used to find these offices very boring. You need to sacrifice your outing with friends and sit in a cabin all day. But from a year or so I am finding my office very interesting. Suddenly I am being given more importance than before. More over when anyone feels you are the right guy to do a job, it’s recognition in itself. So the addiction to work isn’t bad at all after all. The problem arises when you are addicted to both working and lazying.Confusing? Don’t even try to understand. You will never.

With so many addictions I feel I am addicted to life itself. So many times I have felt happy living this life and have been selfish and greedy in expecting more from my life. Getting addicted to your own life is indeed a big addiction.